i've been trying so hard, but you dont see it .
you put something in between us, to stop me reaching out for you.
and that your words, it left me unreachable for you .

19dec'09

went RTL 1.01 lesson after my night shift .
im dead tired already .
i book the wrong time and date .
i miscalculate my schedule.
finish work at 6am, and my lesson is at 8am
went down woodland meet up with up with my brothers .
den we train down together .
we were just in time .
the instructor is kinda lame and crazy .
anyway the lesson is boring too .
only some point we need to take note of .
after lesson went back to woodland .
alfred and jie xiong went for haircut .
and i went home to rest because i have basketball in the evening .
get to sleep for only 3hour . thank to alfred and jie xiong .
come back make the hell load of noise .
arghhhh! . so tiredd .
went down basketball at around 6pm and the sky is dark .
lucky it didnt rain.
went 850 and it was dead quiet till 8pm .
play till 9plus went home as i have practical the next morning .
rest after i reach home .

20dec'09

wake up and accompany jie xiong home to change,
before we went down to BBDC .
our practical 1.02 start at 12.20pm
the weather was scotching hot .
but it start to rain when we just wanna start our prac .
got on the raincoat they provided . and our prac start .
i guess the weather is playing with us .
it rain not just even for 5minutes .
and the sun came out again. =.=
instructor ask us to took out our raincoat again .
that was not fun, we were already sweating like hell . (free flow)
this prac we learn how to change gear1 till gear3
it kinda hard at first, but me and alfred manage to get the momentum.
went bigger circuit on that day too .
but not for jie xiong, he's fcuking funny .
don even know what is neutral gear after we gone throu our first lesson on last wed.
he fail his prac 1.02 .
7people attend only 3 passes, kinda stress .
prac end at 2pm we went booking our next prac 1.03 on wed night .
went back woodland again and took 161 to grandma house .
celebrate my sister and cousin BD .
it been long since i went to grandma house.
the last time was a week before i POP .
slack there eat and went home at night.
went down bishan with dear.
sleeping over at her house that night .

21dec'09

meet up with mummy as we were heading down to bugis .
went there to pray pray and eat .
the ramen noodle is worth eating . it nice . ((:
shop shop around and mummy bought some sticker for me,
to decorate my helmet . haas .
after that we went smoke before heading down to somerset.
we were so sway . dear got caught smoking by NSA .
WTH!!!!!! we shouldn't had stop to smoke .
they took down dear's particular and warn her not to smoke.
in the public as she's below the age of 18 .
being affected by this things we took the wrong train.
LOLS .
SWAY AHS! .
went somerset bought the honey dear wanted to .
went city chain to buy my sister birthday prez .
as she want a watch for her BD prez .
it already 5plus going 6pm.
went back to woodland to buy the *bodyguard and assassin .
we got the ticket and it start at 9.50pm .
so we went home first.
the show is not nice . it bored and suck .
for the whole 2hours show, donnie yen is not out even for 30minutes i guess .
his action part fail to impress us. in the end he got knock down by ferrari .
LOLS .
it seriously disappointed .

22dec'09

later had to work again .
and it night shift . tmr morning come home and rest before my prac at night .
hope everything goes smoothly for me and alfred .
den we can advance to 2.01.

there something i don wish to say and explain anymore .
we were both tired i guess .
i find no point explaining anymore .
no matter how i try i wont be the guy u first know again .
everything change . it not only me who're changing but you too .
i guess i have all blame on me already.
anyway it fine . im used to it.