imissthepast, everything about the past .
did i really change or do you?
sighs .

me..... i didnt know how to put it, the feeling is no longer there .
maybe there too much gap between us now .
what linger in my mind was the past .
seriously nothing can bring back to what we used to have .
like you told me, environment changes everything .
i don know whether i can face it, or even our love is strong enough to make it .
alot of misunderstanding standing between us .
conflict occur every now and then .
what have really happen .
didnt have the chance to chat with you nicely .
the night which i have you by myside is no longer there .
i need someone to talk to, to share with .
im stressed, i guess same goes to you .
you didnt know what i really need, neither do i know what you want .
sighs .... are we really coming to the end .
trying to struggle to make this relationship perfect, but it seem we have make it even worst.
it our 15month together today .
it doesnt seem happy or even enjoyable too .
you were sleeping soundly and yet i cant even close my eyes .
every weekend i come out from my camp, i dare not sleep .
because i don wanna lose even a sight from you .
not even a inch.
imissyou. i miss the closeness and the smile we had in the past .
but you're tired .
you cant accompany me till very late now .
im scared every weekend when im out,
i guess you do notice that i keep asking you are you tired, girl?
you say "no" you wanna accompany me, but once you lie on your bed.
it doesnt show what you say .
you cant make it through the night with me .
not anymore i guess . sighs .

sighs. i told you that you've change, the attitude and the feeling toward me .
you cant accept it, and in fact you told me im the one who have change .
that the gap and no communication .
it been 1month plus we have really sit down and really chat together .
and now once we chat we'll have conflict .
i hate it like you does .
i don know should i feel sad or even cry .
i don know . why does it have to happen this way .
i don wanna feel this way, im not being unreasonable or what so ever .
that what i really feel, who can i talk to?
you have friends like ah de or maybe ur gf .
but what about me? whatever i had i keep it with me!
because i don have anyone to share with .
to share my relationship problem .
im very sad now . alone thinking about the past .
people may think im stupid why do i still have to linger in the past .
or maybe im too use to what you used to treat me.
and now what i have is not what i have in the past .
im not used to it . really .
can someone lent me your ear? so that i can speak it out .
anyone?

sighs .
im tired of everything . seriously .
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
anyway happy 15th month .